Just a spare tyre. Know why my age gaps between my jie and kor so far now? (:
The only time which I'm not treated as an extra is when I'm with laogong.
But I guess, I can no longer have that because I since the beginning, I am someone who doesn't deserve to have anything.
Or maybe just someone to be used then thrown away after that.
I'm always the one to be blamed no matter where I am.
To me, I don't need anyone else but laogong.
It's 0kay if my friends don't treat me as a friend, it's 0kay if I have to be the one who clear up other people's mistake & take the blame.
All of those was 0kay for me to forget about all those because I always have laogong to be by my side.
I just place a little hope that you'll never leave me because I don't wanna make you have miserable life with me.
If laogong is gone, the only thing I can do is just what I did in the past to forget about it.
I don't know if I've told laogong before what I did which is dangerous even until now (now it's not because I wanna do it, just I can't control it anymore).
It doesn't happen as often as in the past because laogong is by my side.
If I were to tell you I need you, will you believe me?
Labels: I just want laogong to be happy.
