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've always been the extra one no matter in the family or friends.
Just a spare tyre. Know why my age gaps between my jie and kor so far now? (:
The only time which I'm not treated as an extra is when I'm with laogong.
But I guess, I can no longer have that because I since the beginning, I am someone who doesn't deserve to have anything.
Or maybe just someone to be used then thrown away after that.
I'm always the one to be blamed no matter where I am.
To me, I don't need anyone else but laogong.
It's 0kay if my friends don't treat me as a friend, it's 0kay if I have to be the one who clear up other people's mistake & take the blame.
All of those was 0kay for me to forget about all those because I always have laogong to be by my side.
I just place a little hope that you'll never leave me because I don't wanna make you have miserable life with me.
If laogong is gone, the only thing I can do is just what I did in the past to forget about it.
I don't know if I've told laogong before what I did which is dangerous even until now (now it's not because I wanna do it, just I can't control it anymore).
It doesn't happen as often as in the past because laogong is by my side.
If I were to tell you I need you, will you believe me?Labels: I just want laogong to be happy.
I've been trying to refrain myself from posting up how I feel...
I kept telling myself, just bear with it because I love you...
Nowadays, I just kept how hurt I am feeling in my heart and every single time, I've successfully made myself forget about it by making a piece of my heart disappears.
I know I don't have the right to ask some questions anymore...
I'm sorry, laogong. Sometimes it just slipped out.
I don't mind getting hurt by you, laogong.
Just please don't ever hurt yourself.
As long as you're happy, I'll be happy for you.
That's always the only thing I wish for after being together with you.
Even if laogong doesn't know how much I love you, please at least do remember that there is once a girl name "Melysa" always loves you.Labels: I just want you to know that I love you.
Everyday, I'm so afraid of losing you, laogong...
Do you know how much do I truly love you, BeN Laogong ?
Can you feel how much my heart is yearning for you ?
Everyday, I'll at least say once "I love you"...
Do you know what's the reason behind it, laogong ? Labels: Please tell me you only love me.
I don't know when will laogong check my blog as I randomly just update it whenever I feel like it.
I know it's my fault for not updating it often... I'm lost with words now but there is just one things which I'm very sure I wanna say it to laogong.
BeN Laogong,
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生.
But I don't know if I have the chance.
Labels: BeN Laogong.♥ ™, I wish to hold you forever.
On 25th March in the evening, flew to Singapore to meet my beloved laogong ! ♥ I was feeling super duper happy & excited. Hehe...~
See ! We so sweet sweet nehhh.~~~ ♥♥♥ (Don't jealous hor)
Gotta meet and spend time with my laogong is the best ! ♥♥♥
My BeN laogong looks so happy in this photo. Surely because of me de hor ! Or maybe because gonna eat dinner (at Sakae Sushi).
): On 28th March, came back from Singapore le... *sad sad & turns into Nemo emo* Before leaving, they both got kissiie kissiie ! ♥♥♥ Pinkiie Stitchiie missiie missiie Bluiie Stitchiie neh ! Labels: BeN Laogong.♥ ™, MeL Laopo loves loves you.♥
I'm still waiting...
Will I be able to get that happiness?
Do I deserve it?
1st
2nd
3rd
Comparing these 3 photos, I can there were changes in your smile. Laogong looks very happy in the 1st photo, 2nd looks happy and 3rd looks forced.
I wonder all this while, am I the one who forced laogong to be with me...
I'm the one who chased after laogong, if you remember...
Are you really happy with me, BeN Laogong...?
I kept hurting you when I'm suppose to give you loads of love...
Am I just another PS ?
If I should stay
I would only be in your way
We both know I'm not what you need
But I still...
Still...
Can't let go of you.
I'm still holding tightly onto you...
Because...
I love you very much.
I need you.
I can't live without you...
Labels: BeN Laogong.♥ ™, I only exist in this world for you.
Note to BeN laogong :If it's possible,Laogong allows,I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasyI'll be your hope I'll be your love Be everything that you need. Labels: BeN Laogong.♥ ™, I love you.
